Part Two
It’s 3:05pm. I’ve been working from home at my desk pretty much all day, so you can imagine my mood. My hips are stiff, my bum is numb and I’m desperate to do a back flip off my chair, but I’m smiling, ‘cause this is my favourite time of day.
I anticipate the soft warm thud of the car door followed by a scuttle of feet in the distance and BAM! In she bursts like ‘Jack-in-a Box’… “mummyy mummmyyyyy!” I get the feeling she has something to tell me. Before I can take a breath to say, “yes dear?” She pulls me into her magical world taking me this way and that, wrapping me in her roots, throwing leaves in my face and tickling my ears with sticky sweet stories…
“Mummy, we were playing ‘wolves’ on our walk today, Zade and Lily were wolves and I got lost and” …she gulps down her water and pants like a little cub. “…it was soooooo scary cos I reeeeally felt lost and it was like I was actually being hunted down!” She flashes me a lupine grin, and then pants a little more until she gets her breath back.
While I gaze in awe at her with my proud mummy-smile she begins to scratch her head. “You know mummy, I often wonder… if I had decided to go a different way, erm you know like if I went in through the front door instead of the back door, would the same things happen?” Tea spurts out of my mouth in reaction to the profundity of her questioning. She’s referring to ‘Determinism’ right?
She looks at me amused and confused, her chin pushed back into her neck, one eyebrow up, one down as if to say “mum you’re being weird, again!” I feel like she’s thrown a bag of soft sparkly stars between my eyes. One minute she’s talking about playing ‘wolves’ and being hunted down and the next minute she’s asking very significant philosophical questions about whether her deliberations, choices, and actions are necessary links in the causal chain that brings something about!
After brief consideration as I stroked my tea-drenched chin, I decided not to get her involved in anything too intellectual, even though she started it! I realised how brilliant this was and how I will be eternally grateful for the education Michael House School gave her in her early years. The first four years she spent in Kindergarten from the age of three was all about encouraging free-will, by allowing her to make ‘free-choices’ based on her own judgments and learn through experiencing causality. She has learned through reverent imitation not incessant instruction, in a calm, peaceful, predictable and unhurried environment and her learning has simply gained meaning by its relevance to her life. So it’s no surprise to me now that through her own natural contemplation she is comfortably starting to consider these philosophical concepts.
So she’s done with her deep reasoning for now and appears to be bouncing up and down on her massive trampoline in the blazing sunshine. I’m not at all concerned she’ll get too hot because she’s already stripped off to her pants and has created her very own refreshing rain storm, by somehow attaching the garden hose to one of the poles and it’s spraying up into the air and over her, as she leaps like a frog in a giant water-feature!
It’s reaching teatime, so after towelling down and jumping into her jimjams we decide as it’s Friday and getting late we’ll have a picnic on the floor. So she carefully lays out a blanket and sets places for us all, even taking care to make a little flower decoration in the middle. As we munch our grub Cassiopeia giggles to herself and scrunches up her nose making a little grunting sound. “What are you doing little pig?” I say. “No mummy, I’m being a hedgehog. This reminds me of kindergarten”, she says with a warm glow. “I was just remembering one time, my friends and I made a den and played hedgehogs, it was so exciting because we were allowed to eat our lunch inside it!”
Tucking her in after stories, I sing the song I have always sung her, ending with “So close your eyes and feel the world turn around if you’re not lost I guess that makes you found”. She strokes my face and holds my hand gently all soft and warm. “You know, I do still like playing hedgehogs sometimes, but I much prefer being a wolf ‘cause they get to explore more don’t they mummy.“ She snuggles up and her eyes gently shut concurrently as I close her curtains on the bright moonlit sky.



